Sunday, July 03, 2005

Life Marches On

Can you believe that I have not updated this thing in over a month??? Where did the month of June go? I don't even remember it!!! The ship's schedule has been the primary driving force in my live these days I suppose.... The weekends have been great!!!! When I am not standing duty :) !!!

I have recently taken up Spear fishing, so when I am not scuba diving... Chances are that I am working on diving 30+ft on one breath of air to spear some dinner ;)!!! When I am not in the water, I am usually hanging out with my church family either playing guitar, prayer groups, hiking, or something really goofy and strange. lol

Lately, I have been doing some pondering on life.... I have sooooo much to be thankful for it's not even funny... Nope... Not even a little bit... I have a job that pays me more than I really need that takes care of all and any health issues EVEN dental!!! I've been blessed with some really great friends here on island... I am literally living out a childhood dream of being in Hawaii, scuba diving, and spear fishing.... I have a great palce with a an ocean/mountain view that is in a quiet neighborhood outside of the city that's really affordable... I have the means to afford the sweetest black truck on my street :)... I have a great family back on the maineland who always wants to know how I am doing... Look folks I could keep going on this rant for quite some time... but that is a small taste of the insane blessings that God has so graciously bestowed upon me these days...

Now..... for the not so fun part of writing this.... I will be brutally honest here... I have recently made some startling conclusions... All of those things that I just mentioned are absolutely worthless to me. You might be saying to yourself right about now... (Are you on crack or something?) I assure you that I am not... I even recently had to take the random drug test that everyone in the navy has to do every so often to prove it... Ok OK... please excuse my wretched attempt at humor in an uncomfortable moment....

The blessings that I have recieved are tasteless and utterly dull without a key ingredient... God...

I have been neglecting my relationship with Him these days as I've been trying to enjoy the awsome blessings that He has been throwing my way. I've gotten so busy doing stuff and participating in things and going through the motions that somewhere along the way I lost something very valuable... I forgot about issues of the heart... His heart... Somehow I started pursuing His blessings but left out the Person behind them... Anyway, I am attempting to work on the discipline of solitude and silence... Neither I am very good at... So yeah... Kinda can relate to the Isrealites in the Old Testament... Whenever I read about them in the desert just out of Egypt, I was always thinking they they were really dumb... all the mistakes that they kept repeating.... Fun times to realize that I am just like them if not worse... EESH... oh well... so that's what's up in the life of Ryan for now... Please pray for widsom and discernment in the work place... This is where I struggle the most.... I will have to leave that for a different post...
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